Freedom…is – not. No such thing as freedom exist. It’s an idea, a dream, an imagination, a fairy tale. In modern culture, freedom is the greatest of all illusions, attached to something like free will, free choice, to do what one wants. to consume what one desires. Freedom means to be able to fulfill desire.… Continue reading Awakening from Freedom
Seven Deadly Sins – Pride
I amThis is meLook, what I amAbove it all,Above you allThe epitome of better, of moreSuperior, completion I know it, I know it all, reallyI can tell youJust follow meWithout a doubt in my greatnessMy beautyOtherworldyNowhere to reach me,No one can reach me.I’m high, I’m so high I’ll tell you, just listenDon’t talk, don’t question.Just… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Pride
The Dark Shade
Depression is a dark shadow, a veil over my eyes. It is like heavy concrete blocks on my legs, paralyzing and dragging me down into the devouring abyss. It is a very manifestation of separation – I am all alone. I am abandoned. You have hurt me, you have abandoned me. Whoever you might be.… Continue reading The Dark Shade
Mystery
I am a mystery to myselfI do not know who I am anymoreDirection disappearedJust one isI am aliveLife breathes through meDeeply wanted, for I do exist.But my existence is unknown. I am not the name I respond to when spoken to.I am not a person behind the name, only a phantom.There is no identity.I do… Continue reading Mystery
Nothing exceeds
Just let itstopBestillfor this momentOne momentAll, one momentNowThe thought stream passesSurrender the fightResistanceLet it all goLet it all beRight, wrongnothing is right, nothing is wrongNothing to achieveNothing to surviveNowhere to arrive Everything is lostTo this one momentTo abundant presenceA sanctuaryLoss is the gateNothing to hold onStill carried Uncertainty is the ground on which everything growsTransience… Continue reading Nothing exceeds
No escape from this
You cannot. Resist. Resist me. I see that you try. Try to defy. To not allow this deep, uncontrollable, subtle longing to take hold of you. That drives you directly towards me. That would drive you to surrender. Surrender something that is not fathomable for you. Unfathomably mesmerizing. Dominating. Beyond the stereotypical understanding of dominance.… Continue reading No escape from this
Seven Deadly Sins – Envy
Tremendously flawedis how you feel essentiallyUnworthinessfaces you in the mirrorBeauty belongs to the otherFortune belongs to the otherJoy belongs to the otherYou are separated from it allExclusion makes you want to spoil itExcluded, not exclusiveare youNot for youNot youNot enoughDeserve itIt echoes from the chambers of the past Painfully you noticeAll you crave, all you… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Envy
Dark wolf
You have entered the space, in which you have already existed before.It’s a dark place, not all eyes can see here, can see you.It’s a place of struggling, not because of the strugglebut because of the inability to see, to recognize.Unknown are you, in the darkness. Blindness turns into fear.And if you come close you… Continue reading Dark wolf
Seven Deadly Sins – Wrath
Face me!I am a raging wildfireblindly destroying.Pain for pain, eye for an eye,lethal revenge.I am cold hatred, that will paralyse youAnd freeze you to death,Toxic lava, running through your veins,that will roll over you,scorch every inch of your skin,of your mindbury you, all of youunder furious fires Ignore me, and I will slowly turninto cancerdeep… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Wrath
Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth
I don’t remember when exactlyBut I drownedThere’s just a light memoryOf vibrancy, of curiosityAnd then it turned into a heavy block,Black painted oblivionSuppression, depressiontied around my legs pulling me downTied around my throatSo I just can breathe as much as to survive It all turned into pointlessnessI don’t careI don’t feel anythingutter dullnessI’ve lost itI’m… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth