Here I am now. I am all, alone. Naked and vulnerable. Thrown out of paradise, into a wild, yet unknown and cold world: the primal trauma – waking up into the illusion of separation. Out of abundance and oneness into scarcity. If I cannot thrive, I have to survive. I am trauma. I am sin.… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins
Category: Abyss
Momentum
There is some heaviness looking through your eyes,How could it have come so far?How could you just have not seen it?Where does your surprise come from?It was always in sight, always close.You just didn’t dare to face it.Attached yourself to dreams and an imaginary futureHypnotized yourself into the illusion of free will and controlDriven by… Continue reading Momentum
Awakening from Trauma
Gabor Maté is one of the most inspiring and wise professionals for me when it’s about trauma and its effects on cultural and individual health/condition. His wisdom and knowledge were a light shining through the darkness of my subconscious while processing and releasing childhood and epigenetic trauma. In the video below he refers especially to… Continue reading Awakening from Trauma
The Battlefield of Separation
I look at youbut when I don’t realizeyou in meand don’t recognizeme in you there’s an imaginary linethat artificially separatesme from youand you from me It leaves you and me back,in blindnessnot able to seethe wholeness Whatever I crave thenRooted in this hole of emptinesshow easily it gets projected onto you, my dream Whatever you… Continue reading The Battlefield of Separation
Along the line of darkness
Along the line of darkness into the unknown I’m wonderingI’m wanderingan invisible pathBorn withoutLost in a world that is inherently lost.All its purpose and goal,Artificial. I’m now/here.Unfolding into nothing, into transience.Into a void that is swallowing me, it’s swallowing everything around me.I’m dying, but I’m not.You’re dying, but you’re not.Not even is there truth within.… Continue reading Along the line of darkness
Into the event horizon
Anything we hope for, fear or worry about has already happened, it’s just not yet on our event horizon. When we look into the stars we look into the past, millions of years ago. Our births have not yet happened where and when we look into this void, while in the imagined presence of such… Continue reading Into the event horizon
Dark Delight
There is beauty that will kill you.It’s determined to kill you.A beauty that will make you forgetEverything.Give upAll.It will deprive you of your dreams,Nightmares and sweet illusions.All you ever wanted to live for,feared to live for,It will leave youRaw. Naked. Vulnerable.There’s no approach to thisBeautyWhile you are disguised behind lies.The lies of belief.The lies of… Continue reading Dark Delight
Gateway into the void
When the personal identity is facing the terrifying appearing shift into the unknown, ready to be taken into its abyss, ready to be transcended, leaving behind its familiar beliefs, a threat to the framed mind and physical existence, then sometimes even suicidal thoughts can temporary arise. The world seems to fall apart, and nothing seems… Continue reading Gateway into the void
The Expulsion from Paradise
In exile, far away from everything and everyone who meant something in your life.The pain of loss is unbearable, your heart broke severely. The world became a homeless place, a place without love, a place without warmth.Banishment and separation.You took the pain of the war zones with youThe war with youThe war is withinAn inner… Continue reading The Expulsion from Paradise
A Bathtub full of Acid
Dissolving into the unknownMysteryWhere I have no name anymoreAttachment to this physical worldVanishingI have no groundNo reasonNowhereTo stay to remain to goIt’s overIt’s startingEverything lostAnd arisingWhat I cannot comprehendCannot nameWho am II am thatI am not