The experience of (temporary) severe disability guided me into real embodiment that is not dissociated anymore, that is literally not able to run away from what is. That is able to stand still and in awareness with what is. It is a humbling experience that reconnected me to grace, to the lifeforce, sheds away layers… Continue reading What disability taught me
Into the event horizon
Anything we hope for, fear or worry about has already happened, it’s just not yet on our event horizon. When we look into the stars we look into the past, millions of years ago. Our births have not yet happened where and when we look into this void, while in the imagined presence of such… Continue reading Into the event horizon
The Shift
She’s intensely vibrating, radiating what is, into every corner of life, nowhere left to hide. From a human interpretation, it could be perceived as rage and destruction, but it’s not. It’s the flavor of a total transformation, a shift into an entirely new paradigm that cannot even be imagined through the filters of the old… Continue reading The Shift
Dark Delight
There is beauty that will kill you.It’s determined to kill you.A beauty that will make you forgetEverything.Give upAll.It will deprive you of your dreams,Nightmares and sweet illusions.All you ever wanted to live for,feared to live for,It will leave youRaw. Naked. Vulnerable.There’s no approach to thisBeautyWhile you are disguised behind lies.The lies of belief.The lies of… Continue reading Dark Delight
Towards Sunset
T he beauty of going down,can you feel it, in your pulsating, trembling cells?What is past has to perish,Ready to drown in darkness,not into oblivion,just back homeinto the unknown.To rise,transformed and altered,after gone through death,through the dark nights of the soul.The last day shifted into heavenly nothingness,Shining bright,Leaving traces through spaceand time.Without roots,just transcendent memory.
Heatwave
Greeting from Africa, surrounding you with the lonely and desperate silence of death, in the vastness of the desert, Sahara. Last breaths under the burning sun, dust and sand in the eyes, in the mouth, in the lungs. Burned skin. It’s traveling over the Mediterranean Sea, carrying desert sands, absorbing and transporting the nameless but… Continue reading Heatwave
Journey into the void
It is not really evident when everything started, even the “how” is more like a conceptual memory. At some point, I was born, and this “I” unfolded through what was reflected to me, through what was projected onto and into me, by those who became my projection. I am the result of a long, sometimes… Continue reading Journey into the void
Instant #0
There is a space where I don’t exist,I am lost.I can’t go there, no-one can go thereJust nowhere to enterNo matter how deeply I search,No matter how deeply I crave,No matter I,I am not.I, falling apart,I did not vanish,I did never existI am dreamt existence.Dreaming in lucidity,Dwelling in shapes like made of fluid, colored glass,Gazing… Continue reading Instant #0
Beyond I
There is feeling,and I don’t feel.I am dead,and this is absolute vibrancy.All longing is the past,and there is no future at all.All I am is tired,and all there is is awakening.Beauty expanding beyond form,melting with decay and death.Darkness is all the source,birthing the light forever.Inhaling the collapse with every breath,and ever exhaling the growth.All I… Continue reading Beyond I
Irreversible
The morning you woke up, the color of the sky was brightly irrelevant. Were there heavy clouds hanging in multiple shades of grey, was the sky of radiant blue: there was just this raw unfathomable vibrant beauty, directed towards your face, with curious and innocent eyes absorbing the reflection of a beauty that was revealed… Continue reading Irreversible