Silence is swallowing meall words have been saidall stories have been toldnothing remainsa blank canvasready to be written on anewbutthere are no wordsto describe, to name, to fathomthe depth, the vastness, the emptinesswords cannot dive into this abysscannot delve into that otherworldlinessall left behindwhile “behind” has no correlation anymore there was the moment the last… Continue reading Silence
Perspective
Facing the vastness of the voideventually, I will get lostoverwhelmed.Whatever I am or was will becomeswallowedby oblivion.There was never anyone to be knownnothing to knowAll memory of myself will ceaseas well as all traces I left afterI will be gone.All achievement will be meaningless,All failing will not matter,dissolving into the tremendous empty space. Facing the… Continue reading Perspective
Blurring
The gaze fixed on a distant goal in an imaginary futureRooted in a past, merely a memoryAttached to nostalgiaOr terrorDistracted from an imaginary nowThe direction is – escapeFrom a place where everything seems unbearableWrongOut of orderEscaping and distraction keep you aliveIn your fabricated realityFrom your fabricated realityAt any cost, you want to preserve, conserve, continueThe… Continue reading Blurring
Healing from the Incurable
Human organic life, from the very first breath, is dedicated to death, its beginning contains its end. The body’s nature is transient, it’s a brief appearance of structured molecules/matter in the vast realm of imaginary time and space, and it tells a story of life, of human life and experience. Its cells and DNA carry… Continue reading Healing from the Incurable
The Battlefield of Separation
I look at youbut when I don’t realizeyou in meand don’t recognizeme in you there’s an imaginary linethat artificially separatesme from youand you from me It leaves you and me back,in blindnessnot able to seethe wholeness Whatever I crave thenRooted in this hole of emptinesshow easily it gets projected onto you, my dream Whatever you… Continue reading The Battlefield of Separation
Along the line of darkness
Along the line of darkness into the unknown I’m wonderingI’m wanderingan invisible pathBorn withoutLost in a world that is inherently lost.All its purpose and goal,Artificial. I’m now/here.Unfolding into nothing, into transience.Into a void that is swallowing me, it’s swallowing everything around me.I’m dying, but I’m not.You’re dying, but you’re not.Not even is there truth within.… Continue reading Along the line of darkness
What disability taught me
The experience of (temporary) severe disability guided me into real embodiment that is not dissociated anymore, that is literally not able to run away from what is. That is able to stand still and in awareness with what is. It is a humbling experience that reconnected me to grace, to the lifeforce, sheds away layers… Continue reading What disability taught me
Into the event horizon
Anything we hope for, fear or worry about has already happened, it’s just not yet on our event horizon. When we look into the stars we look into the past, millions of years ago. Our births have not yet happened where and when we look into this void, while in the imagined presence of such… Continue reading Into the event horizon
The Shift
She’s intensely vibrating, radiating what is, into every corner of life, nowhere left to hide. From a human interpretation, it could be perceived as rage and destruction, but it’s not. It’s the flavor of a total transformation, a shift into an entirely new paradigm that cannot even be imagined through the filters of the old… Continue reading The Shift
Dark Delight
There is beauty that will kill you.It’s determined to kill you.A beauty that will make you forgetEverything.Give upAll.It will deprive you of your dreams,Nightmares and sweet illusions.All you ever wanted to live for,feared to live for,It will leave youRaw. Naked. Vulnerable.There’s no approach to thisBeautyWhile you are disguised behind lies.The lies of belief.The lies of… Continue reading Dark Delight