No space anymore to do what I want.All I want dies slowly into oblivion.The personal will becomes a toothless lion.Survival power overtaken, now starve under the hot, radiant sun.What do you want, lion? Animal you are. Forget about yourself. It’s over. For you. Nothing remains. Just the sun. Just the sun.Under my wings, you’ll find… Continue reading Towards
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Phoenix
Down, on the very ground, covered by the white ashes remaining from the inferno that burnt down everything. Everything I was. Everything I thought to be. Everything you thought I was. Everything I believed in. Everything I hoped for. Everything I dreamt of. Be it the wild glorious and dark pessimistic dreams of the future,… Continue reading Phoenix
Testimony – Facing infinity
Kundalini is an extreme force during the last weeks, more extreme than it was ever before. Leaving aside the permanent energy rushes and electric impulse in the body its activity in the head opens realms that really alter the mind, brain, and perception. Any impulse to take control over the process crashes against the limitation… Continue reading Testimony – Facing infinity
The Ecstasy of the Alchemistress
For eons you have waited, but how could you have been prepared? Now you have to face it, face her. There is no way back, no escape. The door to still get out has just been closed. For eons of evolution. Surrender and your death will be rather a gentle one, a cautious but powerful… Continue reading The Ecstasy of the Alchemistress
New Entry
Lost amidst fading familiar orientation, countless circuits in your brain have completely detached; and without contact, they reach into the void. All information is slowly lost, the old knowledge, the old programs no longer make sense. On top of this you stand, you twist in circles full of dizziness, it spins you in circles until… Continue reading New Entry
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Calm and sober are you sitting here, still bewildered, gazing into the luminous abyss. Once upon a time, dark figures sat and waited to cast their shadows into space and time to chase more shadows. Sometimes they would overcome and multiply violently. Now there is nothing left, only boundless-meaningless emptiness that reaches into you. At… Continue reading Untitled
Headspace
It seems like a volcano wanting to erupt out of you, you feel the heat rising up inside you and the urge to just react to this impulse puts you under intense pressure. You have to pull yourself together now, and you tear and tear and tear and then it tears you, apart. A thousand… Continue reading Headspace
Meeting Point
Now, you fought that hard and yet you lost everything to me. Everything you ever believed in, everyone who ever believed in you, everything that ever meant anything to you, nothing separates us now. You thought with the right attitude and positive mindset nothing could happen to you and you could do anything. And now… Continue reading Meeting Point
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A new world, neither of yesterday nor for the future. Only today it radiates upon me, tirelessly. Today is forever, nothing will ever separate me again, and nothing will ever be mine again. What at first seemed everlasting crumbled today at a stroke. Nothing can hold it, grasp it, understand it anymore. Hindsight blurs, the… Continue reading Section
Just, like this
A thousand things in my head, planned and spontaneous, as if they had all arranged to meet at once now. Now all at once, planned chaos in the head, that was not foreseeable. The plan – as laid out there – loses its ground. Sudden flashes of inspiration attack it, emerge, dive off, swift and… Continue reading Just, like this