When the personal identity is facing the terrifying appearing shift into the unknown, ready to be taken into its abyss, ready to be transcended, leaving behind its familiar beliefs, a threat to the framed mind and physical existence, then sometimes even suicidal thoughts can temporary arise. The world seems to fall apart, and nothing seems… Continue reading Gateway into the void
Category: Kundalini
Interim
Here you are now, naked in front of me – or do I face my naked self?Before, you were not aware where it’s heading and what it’s about. And now, it is still far less clear. With cold eyes, I’m looking at you, but you can’t read a Mu in them, they don’t give you… Continue reading Interim
A Bathtub full of Acid
Dissolving into the unknownMysteryWhere I have no name anymoreAttachment to this physical worldVanishingI have no groundNo reasonNowhereTo stay to remain to goIt’s overIt’s startingEverything lostAnd arisingWhat I cannot comprehendCannot nameWho am II am thatI am not
A piece of bliss
Your mind is confused, where did yesterday disappear to? Yesterday she was still there, warm and soft, and today everything is empty. No approval, no attention, no tenderness. Only oblivion. It’s not true anyway, you don’t know for a long time what to believe outside of what you’ve learned to think. Your world is an… Continue reading A piece of bliss
Phoenix
Down, on the very ground, covered by the white ashes remaining from the inferno that burnt down everything. Everything I was. Everything I thought to be. Everything you thought I was. Everything I believed in. Everything I hoped for. Everything I dreamt of. Be it the wild glorious and dark pessimistic dreams of the future,… Continue reading Phoenix
Testimony – Facing infinity
Kundalini is an extreme force during the last weeks, more extreme than it was ever before. Leaving aside the permanent energy rushes and electric impulse in the body its activity in the head opens realms that really alter the mind, brain, and perception. Any impulse to take control over the process crashes against the limitation… Continue reading Testimony – Facing infinity
The Ecstasy of the Alchemistress
For eons you have waited, but how could you have been prepared? Now you have to face it, face her. There is no way back, no escape. The door to still get out has just been closed. For eons of evolution. Surrender and your death will be rather a gentle one, a cautious but powerful… Continue reading The Ecstasy of the Alchemistress
Meeting Point
Now, you fought that hard and yet you lost everything to me. Everything you ever believed in, everyone who ever believed in you, everything that ever meant anything to you, nothing separates us now. You thought with the right attitude and positive mindset nothing could happen to you and you could do anything. And now… Continue reading Meeting Point
Transhift
Right before I lost myself in this endless vastness and lightness, I drowned once again in the heaviness. My breath stood still under the pressure that was lying on my chest. My heart stopped beating, it ended this old rhythm, this outlived melody. Nothing worked anymore, nothing progressed, everything gave up its service, all programs… Continue reading Transhift