Resurrection/Memory – It was an Easter Sunday or Monday in the second year of the new millennium when an experience, which phenomena are in some notions described as a “Kundalini awakening”, set me irreversibly on fire. That time of my beginning to mid-twenties has been utterly challenging. I have been some strange mixture between being… Continue reading Fragment #4
Category: Kundalini
Instant #2 – off/grid
There is an excitement inside youYou cannot fathomIt makes you kind of uncomfortable,While it strangely arouses youYour whole body is vibratingYour cells are pulsatingYou hear melodies coming to your earsFrom a depth that has no directionYou don’t understand a word, but the sound is familiarAnthems that have been buried deeply under oblivionAncient memory that has… Continue reading Instant #2 – off/grid
In the Face of Fall
You look into her eyes and try, try to read anything. Anything you could understand. Her eyes are deep like the dark night, but there is a raging fire in their black abyss. You can barely see it, as it is almost entirely absorbed by the darkness. Unknown depths swallowing what has been seen, what… Continue reading In the Face of Fall
Nothing exceeds
Just let itstopBestillfor this momentOne momentAll, one momentNowThe thought stream passesSurrender the fightResistanceLet it all goLet it all beRight, wrongnothing is right, nothing is wrongNothing to achieveNothing to surviveNowhere to arrive Everything is lostTo this one momentTo abundant presenceA sanctuaryLoss is the gateNothing to hold onStill carried Uncertainty is the ground on which everything growsTransience… Continue reading Nothing exceeds
No escape from this
You cannot. Resist. Resist me. I see that you try. Try to defy. To not allow this deep, uncontrollable, subtle longing to take hold of you. That drives you directly towards me. That would drive you to surrender. Surrender something that is not fathomable for you. Unfathomably mesmerizing. Dominating. Beyond the stereotypical understanding of dominance.… Continue reading No escape from this
Testimony #I
I have never really aimed for anything in “this world”. I never really felt any meaning or purpose in this existence. It was heavy, sad, depressing, downweighing. Humans were no beings to trust, no matter how much I loved them, or how dependent I was on their love. Also, I was a human. When I… Continue reading Testimony #I
Memento Mori
There you stand, aware of your mortalityEverything you are, you have built up, you have createdIs dedicated to deathThe unknown transition, inherently transientImpermanence is the very nature of your whole existence Everything you are is borrowedYour memory, your identity, your bodyEvery atom of your bodyThey are not yoursThey shift from one shape into anotherFrom aeon,… Continue reading Memento Mori
You are
You are nature,in human form,not just a part of nature.Born from the Great Motherwhose name you have forgottenEngaging in the fall of a civilisationAs having been there already beforeIn cyclesSince eonsRise and fallGrowth and decayBirth and deathCycle of life Bits shift to the stars,Bits remain as a testimony for your children I’m with you, mother,I… Continue reading You are
Glowing
After the rain washed away the dirt from todayA golden fire is burningLast clouds are dissipatingCarrying memory from the storms of yesterdayMemoriesof birth and deathLife amidst allEmerging in time, spaceAnd beyondVast are youTranscending all boundariesTo take presence in allThere is And in your very transienceYou are the eternal forceThat washes away yesterdayAnd makes tomorrow a… Continue reading Glowing
Awakening from Trauma
Gabor Maté is one of the most inspiring and wise professionals for me when it’s about trauma and its effects on cultural and individual health/condition. His wisdom and knowledge were a light shining through the darkness of my subconscious while processing and releasing childhood and epigenetic trauma. In the video below he refers especially to… Continue reading Awakening from Trauma