Abyss – Page 5 – From the Abyss into Bliss

Me, myselfie and I

Trench Warfare

You can’t believe it yet but you have carried her to the grave. Tears run down your cheeks, the time of holding on, of salvaging – it’s over. Torn from you from one minute to the next, the hope that it could get better, that the suffering would be rewarded and thus get a meaning,… Continue reading Trench Warfare

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Calm and sober are you sitting here, still bewildered, gazing into the luminous abyss. Once upon a time, dark figures sat and waited to cast their shadows into space and time to chase more shadows. Sometimes they would overcome and multiply violently. Now there is nothing left, only boundless-meaningless emptiness that reaches into you. At… Continue reading Untitled

Headspace

It seems like a volcano wanting to erupt out of you, you feel the heat rising up inside you and the urge to just react to this impulse puts you under intense pressure. You have to pull yourself together now, and you tear and tear and tear and then it tears you, apart. A thousand… Continue reading Headspace

Meeting Point

Now, you fought that hard and yet you lost everything to me. Everything you ever believed in, everyone who ever believed in you, everything that ever meant anything to you, nothing separates us now. You thought with the right attitude and positive mindset nothing could happen to you and you could do anything. And now… Continue reading Meeting Point

Transition

You still remember your last breath. It was shallow, fairly typical of the life you look back on. Now you can’t go back and your very last breath is about to come – you feel it. Your body is withdrawing more and more from the machines that still keep it alive. Nothing will hold you… Continue reading Transition

What is your biggest lie?

Now, it seems too late.You stand there with your head down, unable to look yourself in the eye. The pain and disappointment, the shock, are just too intense. You have wasted your whole life trying to do everything right, to write a success story, to make your parents proud, to live up to the sometimes… Continue reading What is your biggest lie?

Plastic Love

You can’t let go of the smooth surface, you slide off without holding on, you see yourself reflected in her lifeless eyes, no more danger here. The feeling of dull superiority fills you, mixed with numb forlornness. There was a time, you can’t remember exactly when you could feel your heart beating in your chest.… Continue reading Plastic Love

Transhift

Right before I lost myself in this endless vastness and lightness, I drowned once again in the heaviness. My breath stood still under the pressure that was lying on my chest. My heart stopped beating, it ended this old rhythm, this outlived melody. Nothing worked anymore, nothing progressed, everything gave up its service, all programs… Continue reading Transhift

Against the wall

Just before I woke up, the dream was still so beautiful, and then came the shift. I dreamt you were there, and you, and you, and you. A feeling of connectedness beyond all loneliness. In my human life this was a rare feeling, and I felt all the more arrived and accepted. No longer an… Continue reading Against the wall