Abyss

Abort 69

It is the last day in this warm, dark, humid place where there is no memory of a first day. It is a place of growth, of still-oneness, of unknowing, of the illusion of safety and security. I never want to escape from there, the idea of “I” or “escape” does not exist here either.… Continue reading Abort 69

Stardust

This is it now, I see how you want to escape, to leave it, to leave it all behind. Life, as it appears to you, seems unbearable. You are not just tired, you feel imprisoned in this weak, wrecked body that has lost all its ability to provide you with an autonomous existence. Nothing in… Continue reading Stardust

Handle

The darknessThis sacred yet feared placeNot hidden but you don’t want to see itLet alone encounter itYour eyes crave the dazzling, ecstatic lightGenerating alluring image over imageBubbles in the most beautiful, mesmerizing colorsJust may they not burst FlyingHigher and higherMore and moreClimbing up the ladderTrying to reach beyond the top of the worldA transcended, better… Continue reading Handle

On the Edge

There is a deep peaceful tiredness in your eyes, they’ve seen through a whole life. They tell about fear, abandonment, loss, hate, love, courage, joy, friendship, beauty, loneliness, longing. You know the end is near, but it dawns on you that you actually know nothing. This apparent next step, which appears to be cessation is… Continue reading On the Edge

It’s very dark, you cannot see, although your eyes are wide open.Some sublime terror is surrounding you.It’s the terror of death, your annihilation, the annihilation of everyone and everything that ever meant something to you. The stories that wrote your life, your past. The mirrors that reflected love, and you sometimes have chased this reflection… Continue reading Abyss

Home

The beginning does never endAnd no end ever beginsNature, so alien and mysteriousYet utterly familiarI hear, although sound doesn’t reach my earsLight, invisible to my eyesIlluminatingUnknown Here, now, nowhereAm I emerging?Am I declining?In this presenceAll becomes oneWhile I become fragmentedI am assimilated Now, in another world, desert of the otherTransient creatures of the mindLonging for… Continue reading Home

In the Face of Fall

You look into her eyes and try, try to read anything. Anything you could understand. Her eyes are deep like the dark night, but there is a raging fire in their black abyss. You can barely see it, as it is almost entirely absorbed by the darkness. Unknown depths swallowing what has been seen, what… Continue reading In the Face of Fall

Seven Deadly Sins – Pride

I amThis is meLook, what I amAbove it all,Above you allThe epitome of better, of moreSuperior, completion I know it, I know it all, reallyI can tell youJust follow meWithout a doubt in my greatnessMy beautyOtherworldyNowhere to reach me,No one can reach me.I’m high, I’m so high I’ll tell you, just listenDon’t talk, don’t question.Just… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Pride

The Dark Shade

Depression is a dark shadow, a veil over my eyes. It is like heavy concrete blocks on my legs, paralyzing and dragging me down into the devouring abyss. It is a very manifestation of separation – I am all alone. I am abandoned. You have hurt me, you have abandoned me. Whoever you might be.… Continue reading The Dark Shade

Seven Deadly Sins – Envy

Tremendously flawedis how you feel essentiallyUnworthinessfaces you in the mirrorBeauty belongs to the otherFortune belongs to the otherJoy belongs to the otherYou are separated from it allExclusion makes you want to spoil itExcluded, not exclusiveare youNot for youNot youNot enoughDeserve itIt echoes from the chambers of the past Painfully you noticeAll you crave, all you… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Envy