I’m losing itForgot my nameMy rootsThe causeWhere did it all start?Where do I begin?When what whyBelongBecome Birth, a mother’s memory, long goneDeath, dissolution that has already happenedA story, that already ended while it is toldThis present moment is ever a relic Forever chased, forever left behindFutile attempts to grasp itBut it does not existA phantom… Continue reading Annihilation
Drowning
They appear as given direction and orderWhat you areHave to becomeWhat this world you barely know – except what you read, learned, and were told about –Is You are looking for your place to bePurpose and meaningSeeking what this is all aboutWhat they told youThese voices in your headNamed father, mother, teacher, masterGod and devilDemons… Continue reading Drowning
Abort 69
It is the last day in this warm, dark, humid place where there is no memory of a first day. It is a place of growth, of still-oneness, of unknowing, of the illusion of safety and security. I never want to escape from there, the idea of “I” or “escape” does not exist here either.… Continue reading Abort 69
Stardust
This is it now, I see how you want to escape, to leave it, to leave it all behind. Life, as it appears to you, seems unbearable. You are not just tired, you feel imprisoned in this weak, wrecked body that has lost all its ability to provide you with an autonomous existence. Nothing in… Continue reading Stardust
Desire and Attachment
It’s said that desire, craving, longing is the root of suffering. But desire, in its rawness, rather appears to be a very intense expression of aliveness, with unique qualities. Suffering might arise when desire is attached to achieve the imaginary, that, what is not real.Desire, in its essence, is part of the unfolding life, life… Continue reading Desire and Attachment
The Promised Land
I promiseIt will, be, you will beIt is waiting for you, to be foundTreasure Island The sourceLook withinThe pathTo liberationYou will be free, you will be yourselfTrue It is not yet, not hereFollowBeyond you’ll find meWithin you’ll find yourselfI am itI amI am thatNot thatNot yet But ahead, the new ageSo close, to completionBecoming one… Continue reading The Promised Land
Instant #4
What about todayWhen there is no tomorrowTime leaves youYou are leftBehind, while there is nothing aheadMemory, bittersweetEmerging from a maelstrom, getting absorbed by a voidTears of grief, tears of joyAliveness invades, kills what you believed to be true, realSpacetime loses its coordinatesYou loseYou are lost Alive
Handle
The darknessThis sacred yet feared placeNot hidden but you don’t want to see itLet alone encounter itYour eyes crave the dazzling, ecstatic lightGenerating alluring image over imageBubbles in the most beautiful, mesmerizing colorsJust may they not burst FlyingHigher and higherMore and moreClimbing up the ladderTrying to reach beyond the top of the worldA transcended, better… Continue reading Handle
On the Edge
There is a deep peaceful tiredness in your eyes, they’ve seen through a whole life. They tell about fear, abandonment, loss, hate, love, courage, joy, friendship, beauty, loneliness, longing. You know the end is near, but it dawns on you that you actually know nothing. This apparent next step, which appears to be cessation is… Continue reading On the Edge
Logic
Logic is a method of cognition, a method to look at information and process it, a function the brain provides. It has nothing to do with “reality” or “truth”. but is rather part of creating/processing “reality”, based on causal perception and interpretation. Reality is a paradox. It is and is not. It’s a product of… Continue reading Logic