Calm and sober are you sitting here, still bewildered, gazing into the luminous abyss. Once upon a time, dark figures sat and waited to cast their shadows into space and time to chase more shadows. Sometimes they would overcome and multiply violently. Now there is nothing left, only boundless-meaningless emptiness that reaches into you. At… Continue reading Untitled
Headspace
It seems like a volcano wanting to erupt out of you, you feel the heat rising up inside you and the urge to just react to this impulse puts you under intense pressure. You have to pull yourself together now, and you tear and tear and tear and then it tears you, apart. A thousand… Continue reading Headspace
Meeting Point
Now, you fought that hard and yet you lost everything to me. Everything you ever believed in, everyone who ever believed in you, everything that ever meant anything to you, nothing separates us now. You thought with the right attitude and positive mindset nothing could happen to you and you could do anything. And now… Continue reading Meeting Point
Section
A new world, neither of yesterday nor for the future. Only today it radiates upon me, tirelessly. Today is forever, nothing will ever separate me again, and nothing will ever be mine again. What at first seemed everlasting crumbled today at a stroke. Nothing can hold it, grasp it, understand it anymore. Hindsight blurs, the… Continue reading Section
Dreamlike
Airless space it seems, and yet it breathes softly, gently. A light breeze penetrates but does not disturb the emptiness. Bringing with it stories from a seemingly different dimension, I listen. The scent of a world spreads out, in which everything revolves around itself, turns and spins, and dizziness. The impression is strong and the… Continue reading Dreamlike
Transition
You still remember your last breath. It was shallow, fairly typical of the life you look back on. Now you can’t go back and your very last breath is about to come – you feel it. Your body is withdrawing more and more from the machines that still keep it alive. Nothing will hold you… Continue reading Transition
What is your biggest lie?
Now, it seems too late.You stand there with your head down, unable to look yourself in the eye. The pain and disappointment, the shock, are just too intense. You have wasted your whole life trying to do everything right, to write a success story, to make your parents proud, to live up to the sometimes… Continue reading What is your biggest lie?
Just, like this
A thousand things in my head, planned and spontaneous, as if they had all arranged to meet at once now. Now all at once, planned chaos in the head, that was not foreseeable. The plan – as laid out there – loses its ground. Sudden flashes of inspiration attack it, emerge, dive off, swift and… Continue reading Just, like this
Not yet.
First impressions in the morning, not tangible, still in this world, yet I want to be intangible, blown away and transcended. Not absorbing, out-breathing. Just let her breathe me in, I push her through me. Nothing pulls me, no need or want, just exhaling, inhaling happens by itself. Once again today she won’t get me,… Continue reading Not yet.
Adam 1.
You’re actually not doing badly, and from a certain perspective, that’s a huge understatement. Your life is dazzling and everything around you is going exactly according to plan, according to your plan. You have always been intelligent enough not to leave anything to chance and have set realistic and ambitious goals for yourself. “The sky… Continue reading Adam 1.