In exile, far away from everything and everyone who meant something in your life.
The pain of loss is unbearable, your heart broke severely.
The world became a homeless place, a place without love, a place without warmth.
Banishment and separation.
You took the pain of the war zones with you
The war with you
The war is within
An inner war
while you’re searching for purpose, connection, meaning
Outside
In a life
full of duty and dullness
Your heart can’t forget
Can’t trust
Trust
Lost
The nights are cold,
Are without end
Endless sadness
an epitome of loneliness
Dying, the craving for an end to the suffering
In meaninglessness
While something inside you pushes you to survive
To continue
being part of a world you don’t feel connected to
There seems no hope
For a home
For realness
For vulnerability
Intimacy
Love
You numb yourself with dull
meaningless connection
conversation
Just to not feel
The pain
Of your deep craving within
For something real
In this world of untruth
You yourself don’t show realness
desperately searching for an affiliation
For communion
For a warm heart
A warm connection
In a world
That has lost all purpose for you
Future
Just survival
And dead kisses
freezing your heart
To the bone
This present moment seems to be an eternal expulsion from paradise
Abandonment of life
And while you slowly awaken
Realising the agony of escaping
Of escaping what feels real
because the pain seems to kill you
There are moments you’re ready to surrender
To the lies
To warm your vulnerable heart
by false connection
To distract you from the raw reality
From truth
And numb the pain
But something inside you
Is still alive
Is life force
Waiting to awaken
To break through the dense shell
Patiently, still
To take over
And fill your life
with what you’re meant to be
Love and loved
Breaking through the pain
Breaking through the lies
Revealing the beauty
You carry within
To let it break free
And burn
Burning down the false life
Burning down the lies
Burning down what is already broken and can never be fixed
What keeps you down
in heaviness
Away
From vibrancy and ecstasy
What you’re meant to be
Will bring you liberation
And transcendence
From what you fear the most
The rawness of vulnerability
Of being real
Of revealing the pain and beauty of your soul
In a world that has sold all beauty for numbness
There’s a paradise
beyond the separating line of your tight beliefs
And one day
this line will have vanished
Into the sweet nothingness of the lightness of a death beyond death
And you will realize
the expulsion from paradise
Is the path to grow
mature
and expand
Into a new dimension
Where
Paradise
Is found
Within
Beyond
Liberated
Illuminated
Unlimited
