Happy New Year?

It’s a quiet winter morning, the sun is shining. Trains pass by smoothly. Some birds are singing, some crows are calling out. A few dead leaves, refusing to let go of the tree, rustle in the wind. This day marks the beginning of a new year, full of hope and good intentions. Will your dreams… Continue reading Happy New Year?

Fusion

Embraced by the heatA body that refuses to moveEverything slowing downThe breathThe pulseJust some vibrant sounds that fill your earsSome birds singing,traffic, the rivers of the city,passing by at some distanceLaughter and remote hummingfrom somewhere behind the curtains,blowing slightly at an open windowSweat merging with hot dustA mind that withdraws from processingJust sensation without interpretationAliveness… Continue reading Fusion

It should, shouldn’t it?

The lifestream doesn’t provide a home for ideas of what should and shouldn’t be. Those exist as mental fabrications, but immediate aliveness doesn’t manifest through the concept of should or shouldn’t. It doesn’t prefer birth over death, growth over decline, or health over disease. Aliveness isn’t an exclusive appearance of heavenly happiness, it encompasses devouring… Continue reading It should, shouldn’t it?

Defeat me

It is dark in your cave,Your breath is shallowYou don’t allow yourself this alivenessRaw, fragile, vulnerable and unfilteredYou try to separate yourselfInto imaginary purposeTo give this some meaningAnd a dream that has to be fulfilled but it’s futile The lies of the selfThat you believeThat seem to make the pain more bearable They are also… Continue reading Defeat me

Longing

Longing will lead youTo your deepest desiresAnd darkest nightmaresMove you through a worldThat doesn’t existBut it’s so vivid Whenever you are closeThink you are thereFinallyYou got itThis is itNowIt will break youAgainAnd againAnd again When your hand reaches out to graspThis treasureAnd take itHomeIt reaches into nothingTo graspTo holdTo get Trying to take the stars… Continue reading Longing

Fear

Sensation moving through the bodyDense, tenseAlivenessCells might rememberBirth and deathRise and fallSlaughter and genocideLove and loss Cells and DNAdon’t forgetOrganic life is the manifestation of interconnectednessInterdependenceA vibrant network in-formationas an organic human bodyOperated by the brainCreating imaginary boundariesYou and IAll bodily sensationsBecome an interpretationThe story of a personrememberingin dreamt time and spaceTrauma and love Birth… Continue reading Fear

eMinor

This pure expression of vibrancydoesn’t careif its beauty is recognizedWhen there’s no ideahow it has to beThere’s justAlivenessPervading No name,no notionthat can meet itIt needs no validationto be,no reasonno goal It needs nothing to be everything. When you feel touched,there might be a sensation,like joyA bittersweet melancholyAn open, vibrating heart.Pulsation. Some sensationsyou might not likelike… Continue reading eMinor

Annihilation

I’m losing itForgot my nameMy rootsThe causeWhere did it all start?Where do I begin?When what whyBelongBecome Birth, a mother’s memory, long goneDeath, dissolution that has already happenedA story, that already ended while it is toldThis present moment is ever a relic Forever chased, forever left behindFutile attempts to grasp itBut it does not existA phantom… Continue reading Annihilation

Instant #4

What about todayWhen there is no tomorrowTime leaves youYou are leftBehind, while there is nothing aheadMemory, bittersweetEmerging from a maelstrom, getting absorbed by a voidTears of grief, tears of joyAliveness invades, kills what you believed to be true, realSpacetime loses its coordinatesYou loseYou are lost Alive