It should, shouldn’t it?

The lifestream doesn’t provide a home for ideas of what should and shouldn’t be. Those exist as mental fabrications, but immediate aliveness doesn’t manifest through the concept of should or shouldn’t. It doesn’t prefer birth over death, growth over decline, or health over disease. Aliveness isn’t an exclusive appearance of heavenly happiness, it encompasses devouring… Continue reading It should, shouldn’t it?

Defeat me

It is dark in your cave,Your breath is shallowYou don’t allow yourself this alivenessRaw, fragile, vulnerable and unfilteredYou try to separate yourselfInto imaginary purposeTo give this some meaningAnd a dream that has to be fulfilled but it’s futile The lies of the selfThat you believeThat seem to make the pain more bearable They are also… Continue reading Defeat me

Longing

Longing will lead youTo your deepest desiresAnd darkest nightmaresMove you through a worldThat doesn’t existBut it’s so vivid Whenever you are closeThink you are thereFinallyYou got itThis is itNowIt will break youAgainAnd againAnd again When your hand reaches out to graspThis treasureAnd take itHomeIt reaches into nothingTo graspTo holdTo get Trying to take the stars… Continue reading Longing

Fear

Sensation moving through the bodyDense, tenseAlivenessCells might rememberBirth and deathRise and fallSlaughter and genocideLove and loss Cells and DNAdon’t forgetOrganic life is the manifestation of interconnectednessInterdependenceA vibrant network in-formationas an organic human bodyOperated by the brainCreating imaginary boundariesYou and IAll bodily sensationsBecome an interpretationThe story of a personrememberingin dreamt time and spaceTrauma and love Birth… Continue reading Fear

eMinor

This pure expression of vibrancydoesn’t careif its beauty is recognizedWhen there’s no ideahow it has to beThere’s justAlivenessPervading No name,no notionthat can meet itIt needs no validationto be,no reasonno goal It needs nothing to be everything. When you feel touched,there might be a sensation,like joyA bittersweet melancholyAn open, vibrating heart.Pulsation. Some sensationsyou might not likelike… Continue reading eMinor

Annihilation

I’m losing itForgot my nameMy rootsThe causeWhere did it all start?Where do I begin?When what whyBelongBecome Birth, a mother’s memory, long goneDeath, dissolution that has already happenedA story, that already ended while it is toldThis present moment is ever a relic Forever chased, forever left behindFutile attempts to grasp itBut it does not existA phantom… Continue reading Annihilation

Instant #4

What about todayWhen there is no tomorrowTime leaves youYou are leftBehind, while there is nothing aheadMemory, bittersweetEmerging from a maelstrom, getting absorbed by a voidTears of grief, tears of joyAliveness invades, kills what you believed to be true, realSpacetime loses its coordinatesYou loseYou are lost Alive

No escape from this

You cannot. Resist. Resist me. I see that you try. Try to defy. To not allow this deep, uncontrollable, subtle longing to take hold of you. That drives you directly towards me. That would drive you to surrender. Surrender something that is not fathomable for you. Unfathomably mesmerizing. Dominating. Beyond the stereotypical understanding of dominance.… Continue reading No escape from this

The Dawn

Almost unbearable sensation of beauty,it seems like death has already happened,a past event from the future,eternal imagination.It was always – IStanding betweenvibrancy and life One may awaken through a nightmare,a kiss,an alarm clock,sunrays dancing on one’s face,falling out of the bed,the dawn of irrelevanceof time and space. The sharp line between inside and outsideblurs,dissolves,And I… Continue reading The Dawn