You look back to yesterdayWith a bittersweet melancholyYour name emerged thereAnd mother and father and brother and sisterThe childLove and hatePerspective and visionSurviving as hopeInto today and tomorrowAs these dreamscapes A sadness appearing, about what seems to have goneForever? The same place in the dreamscapeis the torture chamber of abandonment and abuseLoss and failureA graveyard… Continue reading Memory and Hope
Tag: poetry
Just be (better)
Sometimes I wonderIf I just have to endure itThat, what temporarily appears unbearable, hopelessAnd that the idea, any other way could be betterIs just an illusion And sometimes I’d just like to escape, run away, disappear From what appears,Be it called memory, emotion, realityYou, me, the other, the worldThisWhat is I want it better Thirsty… Continue reading Just be (better)
No-one knows
There is a phantomCalled no-oneI am thisNo-oneknowsAnything and nothingCan be known
Uncharted
Gazing into at out ofThisIt islostAlreadyI amLostIn thisSeems like depthSeems like a patternBut it has no coordinatesNo lines, no edgesRecognizing the unknownNothing moreIt cannotgraspBeGraspedBecome Is it?
Defeat me
It is dark in your cave,Your breath is shallowYou don’t allow yourself this alivenessRaw, fragile, vulnerable and unfilteredYou try to separate yourselfInto imaginary purposeTo give this some meaningAnd a dream that has to be fulfilled but it’s futile The lies of the selfThat you believeThat seem to make the pain more bearable They are also… Continue reading Defeat me
Maculate
The silence is deceptive,You think you are there now,You got itYou have made your homeAnd the ground appears secure Time seems to have halted,Conserving this illusion of permanenceNowYour determination and intention are your currencyYou did the workYou paid the bills There has to be equilibrium You lean back and look into the futureFor the first… Continue reading Maculate
Longing
Longing will lead youTo your deepest desiresAnd darkest nightmaresMove you through a worldThat doesn’t existBut it’s so vivid Whenever you are closeThink you are thereFinallyYou got itThis is itNowIt will break youAgainAnd againAnd again When your hand reaches out to graspThis treasureAnd take itHomeIt reaches into nothingTo graspTo holdTo get Trying to take the stars… Continue reading Longing
Losing
It wants youAliveIn its vast emptinessIn its abundant impermanence Writing its storiesAbout lifeformsAnd their deforming Birthing and thrivingDecline and annihilation The darkness around you holds the lightAbundant lightYou cannot seeThrough your minted eyes Wanting to winthe warof the mind But there is no warIt’s already lost Your memory is vividThe terror, the loveThe beautySurreal Transience… Continue reading Losing
All of this
All of thisIs itThis painThis fearThis loveThis ecstasyChasingEscapingKillingBirthingWelcome and abandonmentLonging and lossBeginning and endingFluid and indivisibleMeetingItselfIn war and in peaceIn loveCollapsing Do and don’tYes and no Thrive and declineFalling apartBeComingTogetherNo one and each other Here and nowAnd nowhere
Kiss of transience
I look into your eyesreflecting loveThey sparkle vividlyDepth and intensityThis momentThat shall never passKissed by transienceDeath smiles gentlyNot here, not nowIntrinsic Life pouring beyond any boundaryHome and lossAmid nowhereWhere you areWhere I amIs lostAnd thereforeOne banquetThat never beganAnd never ends Transience kills youand meLeaving us ultimatelyaloneNot even split apartIt erases our marvelous love storiesand buries… Continue reading Kiss of transience