Memory and Hope

You look back to yesterdayWith a bittersweet melancholyYour name emerged thereAnd mother and father and brother and sisterThe childLove and hatePerspective and visionSurviving as hopeInto today and tomorrowAs these dreamscapes A sadness appearing, about what seems to have goneForever? The same place in the dreamscapeis the torture chamber of abandonment and abuseLoss and failureA graveyard… Continue reading Memory and Hope

Just be (better)

Sometimes I wonderIf I just have to endure itThat, what temporarily appears unbearable, hopelessAnd that the idea, any other way could be betterIs just an illusion And sometimes I’d just like to escape, run away, disappear From what appears,Be it called memory, emotion, realityYou, me, the other, the worldThisWhat is I want it better Thirsty… Continue reading Just be (better)

Liberation for no-one

The idea of enlightenment often comes with the expectation of liberation and healing from all kinds of human suffering, be it trauma, sickness, grief, or loss. It doesn’t. Enlightenment doesn’t happen to someone; rather, the “person” disappears and is seen for what it is: a fictional character based on memory, conditioning, and belief. “I am”… Continue reading Liberation for no-one

It should, shouldn’t it?

The lifestream doesn’t provide a home for ideas of what should and shouldn’t be. Those exist as mental fabrications, but immediate aliveness doesn’t manifest through the concept of should or shouldn’t. It doesn’t prefer birth over death, growth over decline, or health over disease. Aliveness isn’t an exclusive appearance of heavenly happiness, it encompasses devouring… Continue reading It should, shouldn’t it?

My confusion is so clear

“Knowledge is power” is a strong mantra in contemporary culture. It can instill confidence in an impermanent world, whether knowledge is based on science, religion, spirituality, or any other belief system. It seems to provide hope amidst the jungle of the unknown, offering apparent certainty, control, and predictability. “Knowledge” forms the foundation of rules, laws,… Continue reading My confusion is so clear

Death Sentence

Death is one of the most feared ideas among human life forms.It seems to be the end of life, the ultimate loss, annihilation.To utilize and deal with this fear, a lot of beliefs were created, some to comfort, others seemingly to exercise control. But life cannot die. It goes on and on and on, changes… Continue reading Death Sentence

Longing

Longing will lead youTo your deepest desiresAnd darkest nightmaresMove you through a worldThat doesn’t existBut it’s so vivid Whenever you are closeThink you are thereFinallyYou got itThis is itNowIt will break youAgainAnd againAnd again When your hand reaches out to graspThis treasureAnd take itHomeIt reaches into nothingTo graspTo holdTo get Trying to take the stars… Continue reading Longing

Losing

It wants youAliveIn its vast emptinessIn its abundant impermanence Writing its storiesAbout lifeformsAnd their deforming Birthing and thrivingDecline and annihilation The darkness around you holds the lightAbundant lightYou cannot seeThrough your minted eyes Wanting to winthe warof the mind But there is no warIt’s already lost Your memory is vividThe terror, the loveThe beautySurreal Transience… Continue reading Losing

Fragment #7- Fight Club

In the human matrix, the human mind, there seems to be a lot of war, a lot of fighting, for and against various mental fabrications.  Fighting war, war against terror, war against drugs. Fighting for freedom, fighting for peace, fighting for any kind of rights. Fighting cancer, fighting climate change, fighting inequality. Endless combat. No… Continue reading Fragment #7- Fight Club

ID

With the shift, identity is gone.I remember, I was, I had many names, roots, origins. A life story, multi-dimensional.They all gave me apparent affiliation, and alienation, a longing for an imaginary way and place home. A deep longing for belonging, to a tribe, to something special, alien to this apparent world I didn’t understand, that… Continue reading ID