Longing

Longing will lead youTo your deepest desiresAnd darkest nightmaresMove you through a worldThat doesn’t existBut it’s so vivid Whenever you are closeThink you are thereFinallyYou got itThis is itNowIt will break youAgainAnd againAnd again When your hand reaches out to graspThis treasureAnd take itHomeIt reaches into nothingTo graspTo holdTo get Trying to take the stars… Continue reading Longing

Losing

It wants youAliveIn its vast emptinessIn its abundant impermanence Writing its storiesAbout lifeformsAnd their deforming Birthing and thrivingDecline and annihilation The darkness around you holds the lightAbundant lightYou cannot seeThrough your minted eyes Wanting to winthe warof the mind But there is no warIt’s already lost Your memory is vividThe terror, the loveThe beautySurreal Transience… Continue reading Losing

All of this

All of thisIs itThis painThis fearThis loveThis ecstasyChasingEscapingKillingBirthingWelcome and abandonmentLonging and lossBeginning and endingFluid and indivisibleMeetingItselfIn war and in peaceIn loveCollapsing Do and don’tYes and no Thrive and declineFalling apartBeComingTogetherNo one and each other Here and nowAnd nowhere

Only ever this

What’s going on? I don’t get it. Do I ever get it? This. I want to understand. I’m so close, I’m almost there. I feel it. Just this.I want to grasp it, touch it. Want to make it mine. So badly. Liberation. The end of suffering. Happiness. Joy. Illumination. My birthright. When did I lose… Continue reading Only ever this

ID

With the shift, identity is gone.I remember, I was, I had many names, roots, origins. A life story, multi-dimensional.They all gave me apparent affiliation, and alienation, a longing for an imaginary way and place home. A deep longing for belonging, to a tribe, to something special, alien to this apparent world I didn’t understand, that… Continue reading ID

Passing

The heaviness will turn into lightness,leaving the narrow system of identity.attachment to the feeling will dissolve slowlyLiberation from the story,and those feelings become thendelicious,a source of intensity and creativity, of diving deeply without drowning.intensely alive with whatever does expressand all the colors are perceived and experienced with – sometimes bizarre – delightas they already start… Continue reading Passing

Drowning

They appear as given direction and orderWhat you areHave to becomeWhat this world you barely know – except what you read, learned, and were told about –Is You are looking for your place to bePurpose and meaningSeeking what this is all aboutWhat they told youThese voices in your headNamed father, mother, teacher, masterGod and devilDemons… Continue reading Drowning

The Promised Land

I promiseIt will, be, you will beIt is waiting for you, to be foundTreasure Island The sourceLook withinThe pathTo liberationYou will be free, you will be yourselfTrue It is not yet, not hereFollowBeyond you’ll find meWithin you’ll find yourselfI am itI amI am thatNot thatNot yet But ahead, the new ageSo close, to completionBecoming one… Continue reading The Promised Land

On the Edge

There is a deep peaceful tiredness in your eyes, they’ve seen through a whole life. They tell about fear, abandonment, loss, hate, love, courage, joy, friendship, beauty, loneliness, longing. You know the end is near, but it dawns on you that you actually know nothing. This apparent next step, which appears to be cessation is… Continue reading On the Edge