I’m living on the edge of nothingness. I’m tired, tired of engaging, participating in any temporary illusionary phenomena, no matter to which idea they may belong. There’s just no desire for anything, anymore. Just breathing, sensing movement, vibration, pulse, sound. Awareness. This tiredness is not of heavy nor lethargic nature, don’t get me wrong. It’s… Continue reading Ready
Tag: illusion
Blurring
The gaze fixed on a distant goal in an imaginary futureRooted in a past, merely a memoryAttached to nostalgiaOr terrorDistracted from an imaginary nowThe direction is – escapeFrom a place where everything seems unbearableWrongOut of orderEscaping and distraction keep you aliveIn your fabricated realityFrom your fabricated realityAt any cost, you want to preserve, conserve, continueThe… Continue reading Blurring
And then
I hear, but I no longer listen. Whatever you say, I no longer understand it. You have nothing essential to say to me anyway, you only speak words to yourself. You think I should, I ought to understand you, only there is nothing to be understood. The more you speak, the more you cloak yourself… Continue reading And then
Headspace
It seems like a volcano wanting to erupt out of you, you feel the heat rising up inside you and the urge to just react to this impulse puts you under intense pressure. You have to pull yourself together now, and you tear and tear and tear and then it tears you, apart. A thousand… Continue reading Headspace
Dreamlike
Airless space it seems, and yet it breathes softly, gently. A light breeze penetrates but does not disturb the emptiness. Bringing with it stories from a seemingly different dimension, I listen. The scent of a world spreads out, in which everything revolves around itself, turns and spins, and dizziness. The impression is strong and the… Continue reading Dreamlike
Against the wall
Just before I woke up, the dream was still so beautiful, and then came the shift. I dreamt you were there, and you, and you, and you. A feeling of connectedness beyond all loneliness. In my human life this was a rare feeling, and I felt all the more arrived and accepted. No longer an… Continue reading Against the wall