You have closed your eyes, and never again will a word pass your lips.Your breath has left this body, dissolving you into invisibility. It seems like the end of the story, the final destination.But it is not a return home – no one ever left.It was always, and still is. Tears and mourning around you,… Continue reading Afterdeath
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The Dark Shade
Depression is a dark shadow, a veil over my eyes. It is like heavy concrete blocks on my legs, paralyzing and dragging me down into the devouring abyss. It is a very manifestation of separation – I am all alone. I am abandoned. You have hurt me, you have abandoned me. Whoever you might be.… Continue reading The Dark Shade
Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth
I don’t remember when exactlyBut I drownedThere’s just a light memoryOf vibrancy, of curiosityAnd then it turned into a heavy block,Black painted oblivionSuppression, depressiontied around my legs pulling me downTied around my throatSo I just can breathe as much as to survive It all turned into pointlessnessI don’t careI don’t feel anythingutter dullnessI’ve lost itI’m… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth
Trench Warfare
You can’t believe it yet but you have carried her to the grave. Tears run down your cheeks, the time of holding on, of salvaging – it’s over. Torn from you from one minute to the next, the hope that it could get better, that the suffering would be rewarded and thus get a meaning,… Continue reading Trench Warfare
Transition
You still remember your last breath. It was shallow, fairly typical of the life you look back on. Now you can’t go back and your very last breath is about to come – you feel it. Your body is withdrawing more and more from the machines that still keep it alive. Nothing will hold you… Continue reading Transition