Tag: egodeath

Liberation for no-one

The idea of enlightenment often comes with the expectation of liberation and healing from all kinds of human suffering, be it trauma, sickness, grief, or loss. It doesn’t. Enlightenment doesn’t happen to someone; rather, the “person” disappears and is seen for what it is: a fictional character based on memory, conditioning, and belief. “I am”… Continue reading Liberation for no-one

Doorwall

You walk through this door, and you are certain, there is a door, to get in, to get out, to get through. The path seemed so clear, what was clearly your soul, your spirit tribe, guided you, prepared you, since incarnations. You heard, you answered the call. It could not lead to any other place,… Continue reading Doorwall

Annihilation

I’m losing itForgot my nameMy rootsThe causeWhere did it all start?Where do I begin?When what whyBelongBecome Birth, a mother’s memory, long goneDeath, dissolution that has already happenedA story, that already ended while it is toldThis present moment is ever a relic Forever chased, forever left behindFutile attempts to grasp itBut it does not existA phantom… Continue reading Annihilation

Drowning

They appear as given direction and orderWhat you areHave to becomeWhat this world you barely know – except what you read, learned, and were told about –Is You are looking for your place to bePurpose and meaningSeeking what this is all aboutWhat they told youThese voices in your headNamed father, mother, teacher, masterGod and devilDemons… Continue reading Drowning

Abyss

It’s very dark, you cannot see, although your eyes are wide open.Some sublime terror is surrounding you.It’s the terror of death, your annihilation, the annihilation of everyone and everything that ever meant something to you. The stories that wrote your life, your past. The mirrors that reflected love, and you sometimes have chased this reflection… Continue reading Abyss

Fragment #4

Resurrection/Memory – It was an Easter Sunday or Monday in the second year of the new millennium when an experience, which phenomena are in some notions described as a “Kundalini awakening”, set me irreversibly on fire. That time of my beginning to mid-twenties has been utterly challenging. I have been some strange mixture between being… Continue reading Fragment #4

No escape from this

You cannot. Resist. Resist me. I see that you try. Try to defy. To not allow this deep, uncontrollable, subtle longing to take hold of you. That drives you directly towards me. That would drive you to surrender. Surrender something that is not fathomable for you. Unfathomably mesmerizing. Dominating. Beyond the stereotypical understanding of dominance.… Continue reading No escape from this

Momentum

There is some heaviness looking through your eyes,How could it have come so far?How could you just have not seen it?Where does your surprise come from?It was always in sight, always close.You just didn’t dare to face it.Attached yourself to dreams and an imaginary futureHypnotized yourself into the illusion of free will and controlDriven by… Continue reading Momentum