Just be (better)

Sometimes I wonderIf I just have to endure itThat, what temporarily appears unbearable, hopelessAnd that the idea, any other way could be betterIs just an illusion And sometimes I’d just like to escape, run away, disappear From what appears,Be it called memory, emotion, realityYou, me, the other, the worldThisWhat is I want it better Thirsty… Continue reading Just be (better)

Drowning

They appear as given direction and orderWhat you areHave to becomeWhat this world you barely know – except what you read, learned, and were told about –Is You are looking for your place to bePurpose and meaningSeeking what this is all aboutWhat they told youThese voices in your headNamed father, mother, teacher, masterGod and devilDemons… Continue reading Drowning

Desire and Attachment

It’s said that desire, craving, longing is the root of suffering. But desire, in its rawness, rather appears to be a very intense expression of aliveness, with unique qualities. Suffering might arise when desire is attached to achieve the imaginary, that, what is not real.Desire, in its essence, is part of the unfolding life, life… Continue reading Desire and Attachment

The Promised Land

I promiseIt will, be, you will beIt is waiting for you, to be foundTreasure Island The sourceLook withinThe pathTo liberationYou will be free, you will be yourselfTrue It is not yet, not hereFollowBeyond you’ll find meWithin you’ll find yourselfI am itI amI am thatNot thatNot yet But ahead, the new ageSo close, to completionBecoming one… Continue reading The Promised Land

The Power of No

How many times have you bought with a Yesaffiliationbelongingattachment to a groupa tribeacknowledgmentValidation How often has your Yes been a false compromiseA fake agreementA lie to yourselfDelusionA self-hypnosisA dealBetrayal What was assumed to be freedomwas rather lived desire,rooted in need,addiction,survival You know the demons of No Which you encountered asneglectrejectiondenial Those demonsdrawing an imaginary linebetween… Continue reading The Power of No

Awakening from Freedom

Freedom…is – not. No such thing as freedom exist. It’s an idea, a dream, an imagination, a fairy tale. In modern culture, freedom is the greatest of all illusions, attached to something like free will, free choice, to do what one wants. to consume what one desires. Freedom means to be able to fulfill desire.… Continue reading Awakening from Freedom

Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth

I don’t remember when exactlyBut I drownedThere’s just a light memoryOf vibrancy, of curiosityAnd then it turned into a heavy block,Black painted oblivionSuppression, depressiontied around my legs pulling me downTied around my throatSo I just can breathe as much as to survive It all turned into pointlessnessI don’t careI don’t feel anythingutter dullnessI’ve lost itI’m… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth

Chasing Phantoms

The gaze follows a shadow, in diverse gray. It leads into a blurred memory, a presumed origin of existence. Long ago, the shadow was given a name. A name, full of expectation for an imaginary future. For an idea to manifest in flesh and blood. This idea, this name, this expectation became personality, identity. Identity… Continue reading Chasing Phantoms

Ready

I’m living on the edge of nothingness. I’m tired, tired of engaging, participating in any temporary illusionary phenomena, no matter to which idea they may belong. There’s just no desire for anything, anymore. Just breathing, sensing movement, vibration, pulse, sound. Awareness. This tiredness is not of heavy nor lethargic nature, don’t get me wrong. It’s… Continue reading Ready

Liberating from Attachment: Depression

Depression is a very common sensation during a Dark Night of the Soul, but also in a “normal” life that is not aligned with one’s true nature. The tight life and work schedules nowadays make it very difficult to find out and get in touch with one’s genuine life purpose, beyond the matter of just… Continue reading Liberating from Attachment: Depression