When the personal identity is facing the terrifying appearing shift into the unknown, ready to be taken into its abyss, ready to be transcended, leaving behind its familiar beliefs, a threat to the framed mind and physical existence, then sometimes even suicidal thoughts can temporary arise. The world seems to fall apart, and nothing seems to function anymore in the constructed reality, and there’s no way anymore to fit into the matrix of the mundane world. Future perspectives based on fear become a real descent into hell for the rational mind.
After awakening, or however one names this paradigm shift of being perspective, perception, nothing remains the same. Somehow irrelevance of sensations, of interpretations, as one just is, the unity of life and death. The engineered identity of a lifetime, attached to individual stories, experience, and past, dreaming of an imaginary future – just fading away.
There’s no personal attachment anymore, not to the physical body, no matter how devastated, not to feelings and emotions. Suffering never was real. Everything just arises and fades away. Intense life and death sensations, pulsing through the organic realm of matter, while spirit’s tender and gentle equanimity spread out, just to surrender to the raw, inherently intelligent life force.
The bliss starts to dominate the mind during the transition into a new paradigm, transmutation through Kundalini burning down everything that is resistant to evolution. Hundreds and thousands of years of personal and collective history, trauma, and attachment, alive in cells and the bloodlines of the past – wiped out in a supernova of creation.
Bliss takes you beyond the “I”, becomes everything, encompassing and diving deeply into all there is, safely into the tremendous nothingness. No need, no desire, to stop, or to go on. Ever unfolding, I am everywhere, all one, the pulse in everything, simultaneity overwrites linearity, brain-shift into an enhanced, simultaneous way of perception and processing. The end of my known story, the end of time as it was ever known.