Category: Trauma

Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth

I don’t remember when exactlyBut I drownedThere’s just a light memoryOf vibrancy, of curiosityAnd then it turned into a heavy block,Black painted oblivionSuppression, depressiontied around my legs pulling me downTied around my throatSo I just can breathe as much as to survive It all turned into pointlessnessI don’t careI don’t feel anythingutter dullnessI’ve lost itI’m… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth

Seven Deadly Sins – Greed

It has never been enough,not me, not for me.Everything I hoard,possess, obsessEverything I amCarries the signature of scarcity I needI need a lotI crave a lotI’m a beggarA thiefI was not born like thisI was raised by beggars, thievesFrom a lineage of scarcitySubstantial, threatening emptinessfor them, abundance is all about possession I adhere to, I… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Greed

Seven Deadly Sins – Gluttony

The center of emptinessBut there is no centerIt’s a bottomless holeThe utter terror of unheard needsdeprived of loving nurture and a warm environmentborn into starvationIt’s swallowing me for as long as I rememberSo I succumb and gulp down everything I getWithout discernmentPain, memory, sensation, attentionof all kinds All-you-can-eat the garbage I feed myself withto surviveself-hatred,… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Gluttony

Seven Deadly Sins – Lust

Endless craving for satisfaction, Losing myself in the chase for sensationEscapingSeparationI cannot stopBreathlessTake me higherThere is no groundThere is no limit So is my emptinessSo is my loneliness give me pleasuregive me gratificationgive me love Whatever you are Desire is what keeps me aliveIn motiontakes me from one diversion to the nextsurvivalto escape the absorbing,… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Lust

Awakening from Trauma

Gabor Maté is one of the most inspiring and wise professionals for me when it’s about trauma and its effects on cultural and individual health/condition. His wisdom and knowledge were a light shining through the darkness of my subconscious while processing and releasing childhood and epigenetic trauma. In the video below he refers especially to… Continue reading Awakening from Trauma

Healing from the Incurable

Human organic life, from the very first breath, is dedicated to death, its beginning contains its end. The body’s nature is transient, it’s a brief appearance of structured molecules/matter in the vast realm of imaginary time and space, and it tells a story of life, of human life and experience. Its cells and DNA carry… Continue reading Healing from the Incurable

The Battlefield of Separation

I look at youbut when I don’t realizeyou in meand don’t recognizeme in you there’s an imaginary linethat artificially separatesme from youand you from me It leaves you and me back,in blindnessnot able to seethe wholeness Whatever I crave thenRooted in this hole of emptinesshow easily it gets projected onto you, my dream Whatever you… Continue reading The Battlefield of Separation