You look back to yesterdayWith a bittersweet melancholyYour name emerged thereAnd mother and father and brother and sisterThe childLove and hatePerspective and visionSurviving as hopeInto today and tomorrowAs these dreamscapes A sadness appearing, about what seems to have goneForever? The same place in the dreamscapeis the torture chamber of abandonment and abuseLoss and failureA graveyard… Continue reading Memory and Hope
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Just be (better)
Sometimes I wonderIf I just have to endure itThat, what temporarily appears unbearable, hopelessAnd that the idea, any other way could be betterIs just an illusion And sometimes I’d just like to escape, run away, disappear From what appears,Be it called memory, emotion, realityYou, me, the other, the worldThisWhat is I want it better Thirsty… Continue reading Just be (better)
Raw
In the construct of time – some years ago – it all shifted. Not that this has been a single event nor had it a beginning and was evolving. It was not something you would imagine or expect it to be in such a context. Not like that. Because the idea of this shift –… Continue reading Raw
Seven Deadly Sins – Pride
I amThis is meLook, what I amAbove it all,Above you allThe epitome of better, of moreSuperior, completion I know it, I know it all, reallyI can tell youJust follow meWithout a doubt in my greatnessMy beautyOtherworldyNowhere to reach me,No one can reach me.I’m high, I’m so high I’ll tell you, just listenDon’t talk, don’t question.Just… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Pride
The Dark Shade
Depression is a dark shadow, a veil over my eyes. It is like heavy concrete blocks on my legs, paralyzing and dragging me down into the devouring abyss. It is a very manifestation of separation – I am all alone. I am abandoned. You have hurt me, you have abandoned me. Whoever you might be.… Continue reading The Dark Shade
Seven Deadly Sins – Envy
Tremendously flawedis how you feel essentiallyUnworthinessfaces you in the mirrorBeauty belongs to the otherFortune belongs to the otherJoy belongs to the otherYou are separated from it allExclusion makes you want to spoil itExcluded, not exclusiveare youNot for youNot youNot enoughDeserve itIt echoes from the chambers of the past Painfully you noticeAll you crave, all you… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Envy
Seven Deadly Sins – Wrath
Face me!I am a raging wildfireblindly destroying.Pain for pain, eye for an eye,lethal revenge.I am cold hatred, that will paralyse youAnd freeze you to death,Toxic lava, running through your veins,that will roll over you,scorch every inch of your skin,of your mindbury you, all of youunder furious fires Ignore me, and I will slowly turninto cancerdeep… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Wrath
Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth
I don’t remember when exactlyBut I drownedThere’s just a light memoryOf vibrancy, of curiosityAnd then it turned into a heavy block,Black painted oblivionSuppression, depressiontied around my legs pulling me downTied around my throatSo I just can breathe as much as to survive It all turned into pointlessnessI don’t careI don’t feel anythingutter dullnessI’ve lost itI’m… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Sloth
Seven Deadly Sins – Greed
It has never been enough,not me, not for me.Everything I hoard,possess, obsessEverything I amCarries the signature of scarcity I needI need a lotI crave a lotI’m a beggarA thiefI was not born like thisI was raised by beggars, thievesFrom a lineage of scarcitySubstantial, threatening emptinessfor them, abundance is all about possession I adhere to, I… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Greed
Seven Deadly Sins – Gluttony
The center of emptinessBut there is no centerIt’s a bottomless holeThe utter terror of unheard needsdeprived of loving nurture and a warm environmentborn into starvationIt’s swallowing me for as long as I rememberSo I succumb and gulp down everything I getWithout discernmentPain, memory, sensation, attentionof all kinds All-you-can-eat the garbage I feed myself withto surviveself-hatred,… Continue reading Seven Deadly Sins – Gluttony