Annihilation

I’m losing itForgot my nameMy rootsThe causeWhere did it all start?Where do I begin?When what whyBelongBecome Birth, a mother’s memory, long goneDeath, dissolution that has already happenedA story, that already ended while it is toldThis present moment is ever a relic Forever chased, forever left behindFutile attempts to grasp itBut it does not existA phantom… Continue reading Annihilation

Drowning

They appear as given direction and orderWhat you areHave to becomeWhat this world you barely know – except what you read, learned, and were told about –Is You are looking for your place to bePurpose and meaningSeeking what this is all aboutWhat they told youThese voices in your headNamed father, mother, teacher, masterGod and devilDemons… Continue reading Drowning

Abort 69

It is the last day in this warm, dark, humid place where there is no memory of a first day. It is a place of growth, of still-oneness, of unknowing, of the illusion of safety and security. I never want to escape from there, the idea of “I” or “escape” does not exist here either.… Continue reading Abort 69

Desire and Attachment

It’s said that desire, craving, longing is the root of suffering. But desire, in its rawness, rather appears to be a very intense expression of aliveness, with unique qualities. Suffering might arise when desire is attached to achieve the imaginary, that, what is not real.Desire, in its essence, is part of the unfolding life, life… Continue reading Desire and Attachment

Instant #4

What about todayWhen there is no tomorrowTime leaves youYou are leftBehind, while there is nothing aheadMemory, bittersweetEmerging from a maelstrom, getting absorbed by a voidTears of grief, tears of joyAliveness invades, kills what you believed to be true, realSpacetime loses its coordinatesYou loseYou are lost Alive

Off\me

When you think of meI am a thoughtSometimes a feeling, that comes as a thoughtSometimes a thought, that comes as a feeling. I am not that.This image, created, done. I am not the words, the names that have been learned, written, imprinted, carved.Words that draw your image, your map of reality,of someone’s and something’s and… Continue reading Off\me

Dream\dance

This is the dream we dance inThis is the dream we danceThis is the dance we dreamIt appears, we appear, appearanceAppear danceFollow your dreamsLet’s make our dreams realBecome trueDream deeper, hypnotize, mesmerize, realizeWe can never meet, we can never touchDraw me deeper, make me feel realThe dream is longingMake me whole, make me oneMake me… Continue reading Dream\dance

Instant #3 -Mystery

This is the sound, this is the scent, this is the sight. Different names separate direct vibrant experience from you that travels through your sensory and nervous system, exchanging and merging information. There is a mystery around you that you try to grasp, but all of your attempts end up at blurred edges, where they… Continue reading Instant #3 -Mystery