It is dark in your cave,Your breath is shallowYou don’t allow yourself this alivenessRaw, fragile, vulnerable and unfilteredYou try to separate yourselfInto imaginary purposeTo give this some meaningAnd a dream that has to be fulfilled but it’s futile The lies of the selfThat you believeThat seem to make the pain more bearable They are also… Continue reading Defeat me
Category: Kundalini
Maculate
The silence is deceptive,You think you are there now,You got itYou have made your homeAnd the ground appears secure Time seems to have halted,Conserving this illusion of permanenceNowYour determination and intention are your currencyYou did the workYou paid the bills There has to be equilibrium You lean back and look into the futureFor the first… Continue reading Maculate
Longing
Longing will lead youTo your deepest desiresAnd darkest nightmaresMove you through a worldThat doesn’t existBut it’s so vivid Whenever you are closeThink you are thereFinallyYou got itThis is itNowIt will break youAgainAnd againAnd again When your hand reaches out to graspThis treasureAnd take itHomeIt reaches into nothingTo graspTo holdTo get Trying to take the stars… Continue reading Longing
Fear
Sensation moving through the bodyDense, tenseAlivenessCells might rememberBirth and deathRise and fallSlaughter and genocideLove and loss Cells and DNAdon’t forgetOrganic life is the manifestation of interconnectednessInterdependenceA vibrant network in-formationas an organic human bodyOperated by the brainCreating imaginary boundariesYou and IAll bodily sensationsBecome an interpretationThe story of a personrememberingin dreamt time and spaceTrauma and love Birth… Continue reading Fear
Raw
In the construct of time – some years ago – it all shifted. Not that this has been a single event nor had it a beginning and was evolving. It was not something you would imagine or expect it to be in such a context. Not like that. Because the idea of this shift –… Continue reading Raw
Instant #4
What about todayWhen there is no tomorrowTime leaves youYou are leftBehind, while there is nothing aheadMemory, bittersweetEmerging from a maelstrom, getting absorbed by a voidTears of grief, tears of joyAliveness invades, kills what you believed to be true, realSpacetime loses its coordinatesYou loseYou are lost Alive
Handle
The darknessThis sacred yet feared placeNot hidden but you don’t want to see itLet alone encounter itYour eyes crave the dazzling, ecstatic lightGenerating alluring image over imageBubbles in the most beautiful, mesmerizing colorsJust may they not burst FlyingHigher and higherMore and moreClimbing up the ladderTrying to reach beyond the top of the worldA transcended, better… Continue reading Handle
Fragment #4
Resurrection/Memory – It was an Easter Sunday or Monday in the second year of the new millennium when an experience, which phenomena are in some notions described as a “Kundalini awakening”, set me irreversibly on fire. That time of my beginning to mid-twenties has been utterly challenging. I have been some strange mixture between being… Continue reading Fragment #4
Instant #2 – off/grid
There is an excitement inside youYou cannot fathomIt makes you kind of uncomfortable,While it strangely arouses youYour whole body is vibratingYour cells are pulsatingYou hear melodies coming to your earsFrom a depth that has no directionYou don’t understand a word, but the sound is familiarAnthems that have been buried deeply under oblivionAncient memory that has… Continue reading Instant #2 – off/grid
In the Face of Fall
You look into her eyes and try, try to read anything. Anything you could understand. Her eyes are deep like the dark night, but there is a raging fire in their black abyss. You can barely see it, as it is almost entirely absorbed by the darkness. Unknown depths swallowing what has been seen, what… Continue reading In the Face of Fall