Lost amidst fading familiar orientation, countless circuits in your brain have completely detached; and without contact, they reach into the void. All information is slowly lost, the old knowledge, the old programs no longer make sense. On top of this you stand, you twist in circles full of dizziness, it spins you in circles until… Continue reading New Entry
Category: Awakening
Trench Warfare
You can’t believe it yet but you have carried her to the grave. Tears run down your cheeks, the time of holding on, of salvaging – it’s over. Torn from you from one minute to the next, the hope that it could get better, that the suffering would be rewarded and thus get a meaning,… Continue reading Trench Warfare
In between space time
Like a movie, the memories pass you by. What has just been is already gone, the moment seems unreal to you, transient, without grip, a life without hold. No space that seems permanent, flooded by time that takes away its form even before its structures can become solid. Your life in the meantime, in the… Continue reading In between space time
And then
I hear, but I no longer listen. Whatever you say, I no longer understand it. You have nothing essential to say to me anyway, you only speak words to yourself. You think I should, I ought to understand you, only there is nothing to be understood. The more you speak, the more you cloak yourself… Continue reading And then
Untitled
Calm and sober are you sitting here, still bewildered, gazing into the luminous abyss. Once upon a time, dark figures sat and waited to cast their shadows into space and time to chase more shadows. Sometimes they would overcome and multiply violently. Now there is nothing left, only boundless-meaningless emptiness that reaches into you. At… Continue reading Untitled
Headspace
It seems like a volcano wanting to erupt out of you, you feel the heat rising up inside you and the urge to just react to this impulse puts you under intense pressure. You have to pull yourself together now, and you tear and tear and tear and then it tears you, apart. A thousand… Continue reading Headspace
Meeting Point
Now, you fought that hard and yet you lost everything to me. Everything you ever believed in, everyone who ever believed in you, everything that ever meant anything to you, nothing separates us now. You thought with the right attitude and positive mindset nothing could happen to you and you could do anything. And now… Continue reading Meeting Point
Section
A new world, neither of yesterday nor for the future. Only today it radiates upon me, tirelessly. Today is forever, nothing will ever separate me again, and nothing will ever be mine again. What at first seemed everlasting crumbled today at a stroke. Nothing can hold it, grasp it, understand it anymore. Hindsight blurs, the… Continue reading Section
Dreamlike
Airless space it seems, and yet it breathes softly, gently. A light breeze penetrates but does not disturb the emptiness. Bringing with it stories from a seemingly different dimension, I listen. The scent of a world spreads out, in which everything revolves around itself, turns and spins, and dizziness. The impression is strong and the… Continue reading Dreamlike
Transition
You still remember your last breath. It was shallow, fairly typical of the life you look back on. Now you can’t go back and your very last breath is about to come – you feel it. Your body is withdrawing more and more from the machines that still keep it alive. Nothing will hold you… Continue reading Transition