It seems like a volcano wanting to erupt out of you, you feel the heat rising up inside you and the urge to just react to this impulse puts you under intense pressure. You have to pull yourself together now, and you tear and tear and tear and then it tears you, apart. A thousand… Continue reading Headspace
Category: Awakening
Meeting Point
Now, you fought that hard and yet you lost everything to me. Everything you ever believed in, everyone who ever believed in you, everything that ever meant anything to you, nothing separates us now. You thought with the right attitude and positive mindset nothing could happen to you and you could do anything. And now… Continue reading Meeting Point
Section
A new world, neither of yesterday nor for the future. Only today it radiates upon me, tirelessly. Today is forever, nothing will ever separate me again, and nothing will ever be mine again. What at first seemed everlasting crumbled today at a stroke. Nothing can hold it, grasp it, understand it anymore. Hindsight blurs, the… Continue reading Section
Dreamlike
Airless space it seems, and yet it breathes softly, gently. A light breeze penetrates but does not disturb the emptiness. Bringing with it stories from a seemingly different dimension, I listen. The scent of a world spreads out, in which everything revolves around itself, turns and spins, and dizziness. The impression is strong and the… Continue reading Dreamlike
Transition
You still remember your last breath. It was shallow, fairly typical of the life you look back on. Now you can’t go back and your very last breath is about to come – you feel it. Your body is withdrawing more and more from the machines that still keep it alive. Nothing will hold you… Continue reading Transition
Just, like this
A thousand things in my head, planned and spontaneous, as if they had all arranged to meet at once now. Now all at once, planned chaos in the head, that was not foreseeable. The plan – as laid out there – loses its ground. Sudden flashes of inspiration attack it, emerge, dive off, swift and… Continue reading Just, like this
Not yet.
First impressions in the morning, not tangible, still in this world, yet I want to be intangible, blown away and transcended. Not absorbing, out-breathing. Just let her breathe me in, I push her through me. Nothing pulls me, no need or want, just exhaling, inhaling happens by itself. Once again today she won’t get me,… Continue reading Not yet.
Transhift
Right before I lost myself in this endless vastness and lightness, I drowned once again in the heaviness. My breath stood still under the pressure that was lying on my chest. My heart stopped beating, it ended this old rhythm, this outlived melody. Nothing worked anymore, nothing progressed, everything gave up its service, all programs… Continue reading Transhift
Against the wall
Just before I woke up, the dream was still so beautiful, and then came the shift. I dreamt you were there, and you, and you, and you. A feeling of connectedness beyond all loneliness. In my human life this was a rare feeling, and I felt all the more arrived and accepted. No longer an… Continue reading Against the wall
Hen Party
So there it was at last. This moment, this one. The one. Twinkling, I look down at you, up again, into your eyes, which are mine. I no longer recognize myself. My memory is distorted, and so I think I do not know you, and I have known you all my life, but my whole… Continue reading Hen Party