No space anymore to do what I want.All I want dies slowly into oblivion.The personal will becomes a toothless lion.Survival power overtaken, now starve under the hot, radiant sun.What do you want, lion? Animal you are. Forget about yourself. It’s over. For you. Nothing remains. Just the sun. Just the sun.Under my wings, you’ll find… Continue reading Towards
Category: Awakening
Singularity
I no longer have a life. A life that is bound to culture and society, it is over. What remains when external forces lose their significance, what remains when there is no longer any distraction from the immediate, raw being? When each moment counts because only moments are left, raining down on me so abundantly… Continue reading Singularity
Phoenix
Down, on the very ground, covered by the white ashes remaining from the inferno that burnt down everything. Everything I was. Everything I thought to be. Everything you thought I was. Everything I believed in. Everything I hoped for. Everything I dreamt of. Be it the wild glorious and dark pessimistic dreams of the future,… Continue reading Phoenix
Testimony – Facing infinity
Kundalini is an extreme force during the last weeks, more extreme than it was ever before. Leaving aside the permanent energy rushes and electric impulse in the body its activity in the head opens realms that really alter the mind, brain, and perception. Any impulse to take control over the process crashes against the limitation… Continue reading Testimony – Facing infinity
Levitation
The way down leads past the buried dreams of glistening skies and disturbing hells. The look back is friendly, without remorse, without regret, without melancholy. Light is flooding the way down, it is the same upward. There is no longer a path and down and up lose their orientation. Only a vibrant rhythm, a vital… Continue reading Levitation
Extent
It seems as if we are looking at the same world, in the same world, out of the same world. Because we can see, we think. We are seeing the same. But we do not see. I gaze into you and yet I see only what my eyes have been taught to see. I have… Continue reading Extent
New Entry
Lost amidst fading familiar orientation, countless circuits in your brain have completely detached; and without contact, they reach into the void. All information is slowly lost, the old knowledge, the old programs no longer make sense. On top of this you stand, you twist in circles full of dizziness, it spins you in circles until… Continue reading New Entry
Trench Warfare
You can’t believe it yet but you have carried her to the grave. Tears run down your cheeks, the time of holding on, of salvaging – it’s over. Torn from you from one minute to the next, the hope that it could get better, that the suffering would be rewarded and thus get a meaning,… Continue reading Trench Warfare
In between space time
Like a movie, the memories pass you by. What has just been is already gone, the moment seems unreal to you, transient, without grip, a life without hold. No space that seems permanent, flooded by time that takes away its form even before its structures can become solid. Your life in the meantime, in the… Continue reading In between space time
And then
I hear, but I no longer listen. Whatever you say, I no longer understand it. You have nothing essential to say to me anyway, you only speak words to yourself. You think I should, I ought to understand you, only there is nothing to be understood. The more you speak, the more you cloak yourself… Continue reading And then