I’m losing it
Forgot my name
My roots
The cause
Where did it all start?
Where do I begin?
When what why
Belong
Become
Birth, a mother’s memory, long gone
Death, dissolution that has already happened
A story, that already ended while it is told
This present moment is ever a relic
Forever chased, forever left behind
Futile attempts to grasp it
But it does not exist
A phantom full of promises
To escape, to ascend, to transcend
This aliveness is devastating
Annihilating this, and it, and what I am
And what I’m not, is not
I look into your eyes and I see this love
This deep dark sea, where all this longing is buried
Attempted to understand, fulfill, to complete
To escape it
This ever-shifting aliveness,
That is not
This
And not that
And not it
In the eyes of the lover
It reflects transience
The memory
You try to conserve and hold forever
The lover is gone the moment you recognize
But this love
Annihilating alive
You
and me
