It is dark in your cave,
Your breath is shallow
You don’t allow yourself this aliveness
Raw, fragile, vulnerable and unfiltered
You try to separate yourself
Into imaginary purpose
To give this some meaning
And a dream that has to be fulfilled
but it’s futile
The lies of the self
That you believe
That seem to make the pain more bearable
They are also this
What is
The truth of that moment
You cannot escape
You cannot change
You cannot choose
It entirely absorbs you
Pervades you
While it drives you into imaginary separation
Just to not
let it
Overwhelm you
Make this self naked
Reveal the emperor’s new clothes
And while you give everything to hold this dream together
To dream it further
And deeper
And better
The dreaming more and more exhausts you
Defeats you
Until you realize
You are inseparable from the defeat
You are inseparable from what is
Inseparability doesn’t change
if you give its volatile appearances names
It can’t be touched
Your apparent actions
Are the waves on the lifestream
Without meaning
But still happening
Your sorrow and joy
Love and loss
Ecstasy and grief
Shapes of impermanence
There will be no end
And no escape
No change to the better
Or worse
All form, all appearance
has to surrender
to rise
and fall
Emergence and decease
Aliveness becomes your defeat
And your cave
disappears
